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    Loss of a freind… a wrong loss

    Here on my personal blog I am able to talk like a human and not a business owner or professional… its nice to be human at times.

    I lived in Seattle Wa, for over 10 years before moving to CA… but one thing I remember about Seattle are the amazing friends I met along the way.. It saddens me to read in the paper of a homeless man that was shot in Seattle back in Aug, after reviewing the internet and you-tube I found it was a man I knew well…

    John T, was a man I knew the whole time I lived in Seattle – when I worked down town Seattle he used to sit outside of Pike Place Market and make the most amazing carvings, as I grew and moved around to capital hill in Seattle, I had a house and when my X and I split I let John and a few others sleep in the back porch, they would walk my dog, protect my house as I was a single women in a big city. John T was homeless not because of  his intelligence or skills but his love for the bottle…  I used to give them food, and let them shower… there was later in my life when I wasn’t doing so well, and John was there to make me smile and give back what I gave him.

    When I heard a homeless man was shot and killed in Seattle I looked it up and sadden on what I found.. The story’s… the truth?  John T was a staple in the community, if you didn’t know how he and his brothers where you lived under a rock “literal” John walked everywhere, his carvings are famous… and 98% of anyone that gives money to that man on the side of the street, either uptown or down you knew who John T was….

    I am sadden this has happened, I am saddened at the lack of remorse the office is giving, and the lack of… I could say more, but I still need to keep it as is.

    The Story:

    The man fatally shot in confrontation with a police officer Monday afternoon after he refused to follow police orders was deaf in his left ear, the man’s brothers said Wednesday.

    ohn T. Williams, 50, was shot about 4:15 p.m. at Howell Street and Boren Avenue after police say Officer Ian D. Birk’ yelled three times for him to drop a knife and Williams did not.

    Birk, 27, stopped his patrol car and activated his emergency lights after investigators said he saw Williams working with the knife on a board. Police say Williams, standing about nine feet away, refused the officer’s orders in the confrontation that lasted about a minute.

    Birk fired the four rounds from his service weapon and Williams died at the scene. The officer was not armed with a Taser.

    Video from Birk’s patrol car did not show the shooting, but recorded audio from the microphone the officer wore, investigators said. Police Chief John Diaz said investigators were looking for additional video that may have been taken in the area showing the fatal shooting.

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    John T. Williams

    The chief also said he has “a lot more questions than answers” about the officer-involved shooting — the third in Seattle this year. Read more about the incident here.

    “Every situations is unique and this one is going to be investigated as any officer-involved shooting would,” Sgt. Sean Whitcomb said. “Any other questions that remain, we will continue to seek answers.”

    Asked about Williams’ condition, Whitcomb said the question of hearing impairment “is pertinent and will be reviewed.”

    Police did not elaborate, and it is not clear if officers were aware of a hearing issue.

    Williams lost hearing in his left ear eight years ago after an ear infection, his brothers said Wednesday. He caught the infection after sleeping outside.

    Court documents for a May 2009 indecent exposure case — a felony for which Williams pleaded guilty — say he was a transient.

    Rick Williams, his older brother and Eric Williams, his younger brother, said he also wore headphones early Monday when he left Victor Steinbrueck Park, near the Pike Place Market. For years, the brothers carved small totem poles at the park.

    The siblings do not know if Williams had his headphones at the time of the shooting, but believe he had difficulty understanding the officer’s command.

    Williams also had difficulties with alcohol. Rick Williams said that after another of their brothers died, Williams “just snapped” one day and threw a man through a plate- glass window. He spent time at Western State Hospital, a mental hospital.

    “They gave him medications they shouldn’t have,” Rick Williams said. “They pumped him full of pills and he would hear voices in his head until the end of his days.”

    The time at Western State and the voices he heard hurt Williams for years, his older brother said.

    “If you look at the carvings he made a few years back and the ones he did later, you would never think they were from him,” Rick Williams said.

    Family said Williams middle initial stood for Timothy and Thomas. In some court documents it was listed as Trouble — a nickname his brother said Williams received on the street.

    At a Tuesday news briefing, Deputy Seattle Police Chief Nick Metz said Williams was known to several officers. Court documents show Williams had several legal troubles.

    “In the past 20 years he has 30 such convictions, including public indecency (5 convictions); lewd conduct, disorderly conduct and indecent exposure,” King County Senior Deputy Prosecutor Carol Spoor wrote in 2009 court documents.

    A photo of the knife recovered by police show the blade is 3-inches — a knife that is legal to carry in Seattle.

    Seattle Municipal Code states that it’s unlawful for a person knowingly to “carry concealed or unconcealed on his or her person any dangerous knife, or carry concealed on his or her person any deadly weapon other than a firearm ….”

    The code states “a dangerous knife means any fixed-blade knife and any other knife having a blade more than three and one-half inches (3 1/2″) in length,” though there are exceptions.

    Any blade that could cause a lethal injury would be considered a deadly weapon, and the 3-inch knife Williams had was definitely capable of causing a lethal injury, Diaz said Tuesday.

    “I don’t think any one of us would feel comfortable having somebody come up to us with an open blade,” Diaz said.

    Some witnesses have said they didn’t think the officer needed to use lethal force.

    Seattle Police Officers Guild President Rich O’Neill said Wednesday on KIRO’s “Dori Monson Show” said “there’s kind of a universal language” when an officer orders someone to drop a weapon and that the officer was clear in his intent for Williams to comply.

    O’Neill said people rely on officers to make split-second decisions, and later are able to review them with more time than the officer had. He also the situation could have turned violent if the suspect stabbed someone or snapped.

    As part of training, Seattle police officers go through potentially lethal scenarios simulated at a department training facility in Tukwila. Video scenarios are played on a big screen, and change based on how officers use a modified Glock duty weapon tied to the computer simulator.

    One of the possible scenarios is approaching a deaf individual. Police have not elaborated on Birk’s training, but said the officer, a two-year veteran, has not been involved in any other shootings.

    Williams’ grandfather came to Seattle in the 1920s and carved pieces displayed at Ye Olde Curiosity Shop on the waterfront. Williams, who also sold carvings to the shop, was one of 11 children — seven boys and four girls — all who learned to carve at age 5 or 6, his older brother said.

    “He looked out for people,” said Rick Williams, 49. “He made sure they had food and what they needed. … He was my teacher and my friend.”

    Several people stopped by Steinbrueck Park on Wednesday to give condolences to Williams’ brothers and his nephew, Paul Williams. In the morning, two people brought flowers.

    Williams was a seventh-generation carver, family said. Family said he lived at 1811 Eastlake, a building run by the Downtown Emergency Service Center that provides supportive housing for 75 formerly homeless men and women living with chronic alcohol addiction.

    Williams battled alcohol. But people who looked past that “could see all his talent,” his older brother said.

    He would get serious about carving, Rick Williams said. He would record stories in his work, and share with others where totem carvings originated.

    “He was a happy person with a quiet sense of humor,” Rick Williams said of his brother. “And he was a great artist.”

    Family said a memorial is being planned at the Chief Seattle Club, an organization that provides food, medical support, housing assistance and training for American Indian and Alaska Native people.

    Casey McNerthney can be reached at 206-448-8220 or caseymcnerthney@seattlepi.com. Follow Casey on Twitter at twitter.com/mcnerthney.

     


    The Most Amazing Holidays

    This Christmas was the first one, in over 18 years we where all together! (minus dad and Paul, but they where there in spirit)

    The Winiarski Family has been spread out threw-out the years, and along the way we have lost 2 of them to tragic deaths. But 2010 we where not going to let anyone/thing in our way this year!

    Chuck, Dana and Megan came from Ohio
    John, Alexis and Baby (in the belly) Winiarski was there
    Duane, Myself and Little Elizabeth was there
    and the strongest women on earth that brought us into this world was there our Mom, AKA – Grandma-sota, Gma, Nettie :)

    Our cousins took a picture of us all on Christmas Eve!! I then got home and printing them so we all would have a Christmas 2010 picture frame – as I put the frame on my mantel I realized at one point we got smaller and now we are growing stronger and bigger!


    Alcoholism…

    Deep Thoughts I need to get out…

    Well as most of you know and if you don’t you will know now, I am a happily recovered(ing) alcoholic. On Dec 14 is the day I decided to quit drinking and get help and the 15th of Dec is my New Birthday – This year I will be 7 years old.

    I have allot of feeling about this disease and it does make me angry, but one thing I have learned threw out my sobriety is letting anger go, we all know what can trigger us to get mad or sad, and in this disease things can trigger us to drink, one thing I have learned to help me threw the last 7 years is not avoid these triggers but cope with them and learn to work with them, that means working on yourself as a person and the people around you.

    People Places and Things – one of the things i learned threw my journey of sobriety, is remove yourself from these 3 things. If you don’t fix the triggers from People, Places and Things then your road will only be harder and its wont be easy for you to be thankful for the gift of sobriety.  For example if home life is hard, and you are in recovery for YOU, then you need to work on resolving these issue, and if they cant be resolved then new people, places and things is the next step for you.

    I have lost a brother to this disease and recently found a post someone wrote about him on a website: (this you will read below is a post someone wrote on a website and in no way is the facts, its ironic that this person would say this)

    “Paul died of Liver Failure caused by alcoholism. Whoever says alcoholism isn’t a disease is ignorant at best. He tried so hard to beat this, but our horrible healthcare system and social stigmatization of addiction screwed up any chance he may have had. Yes, I am bitter that I lost this man. It didn’t have to happen.”

    When I read this I found it a bit disturbing, (ok straight out pissed me off) this same person that wrote this had a memorial for Paul, and in his honor at the end they raised there glasses (guiness, or drink of choice) in his honor. The person that wrote the above is the same person that raised her glass of ALCOHOL in the memory of a man, that lost his life that was in that glass… Yet what she posts in contrary to what her actions are.

    This brings me back to People, Places and Things… I wish my brother was able to find this steps and it is the steps that removed me and helped me stay sober today. Others people ignorance in this disease is correct and if your people support your choice to not drink they should also change there places and things to help support the ones they love. My brother didn’t have that, and I wish he did

    I am not sure if people ever read what I write, as I dont that much but when i do I mean what I am saying but if you are struggling with People, Places and Things… take the steps to remove yourself, step away and see what YOU want as sobriety is only for you.

    I think these feeling come up more around the holidays and around my sobriety date and now that I know i lost a very special person in my life that wasn’t able to say ENOUGH is ENOUGH (to people, places, things) he is now in my heart, & memory’s but not here for me to give him a hug, but my Christmas present to him & my dad is another year I have made it to stay strong, stay sober and stay true to myself.

    Once we have achieved some days of sobriety, we have to look at our past and determine what we need to modify in order to achieve a more positive future. “People, Places and Things” are what we need to focus on. After identifying these we need to begin setting boundaries.

    Great Read: These boundaries help keep us focused on our sobriety while avoiding triggers that may induce a desire to use again. Boundary setting is critical in maintaining our sanity as well. We all know what its like to be spread to thin and have too much work and not enough time and not knowing how to say “no.” Well, saying “no” to certain “people, Places, and Things” empowers us to take back control of our lives.

    Another Great Read: As amateur night (New Year’s Eve) is fast approaching, I’m reminded  of some very sound advice that is given to people in early recovery:  Stay away from people, places and things that may  push our buttons  aka ‘triggers’.  That was easier said than done for me because when I  was a new in sobriety, it felt as though EVERYTHING was a trigger.  Waking up in the morning – trigger, Monday through  Sunday – trigger, ex-husband – trigger, having a good day – trigger,  having a bad day – trigger, well you get the idea…

    Sources:

    http://realityrecovery.com/people-places-and-things.php

    http://earlyrecovery.wordpress.com/2008/12/28/people-places-and-things/

    To know the true brother I and my family love please visit http://www.paulkitwin.com & please stay strong!

    Update: This post is my thoughts, if you don’t like this, please don’t read this… Part of moving forward is letting what bothers you out – so this I did, and again if you don’t like it – then please open another Tab (Ctlt, T)  browser and surf your heart out on things that you do like to read.


    Sisterwives of MN

    Since I have been back to my root s(good old MN)  I have realized and found out many things.

    1. Family is very important
    2. True friends are hard to find, but when you find them they WILL fill a big void you didn’t know u even had
    3. Sister-wives is a must
    4. Hanging out with your old friends and new friends brings you a new found freedom and relief that is a must! Love u guys!


    Lizzys New Winter Hat

    OMG she is just getting cuter and cuter! Ahhhh love it!


     
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